Feelings with Freckles

 It's almost over-- that time between after the new year begins and winter starts to slowly end.. in South Carolina, anyway.

I've been in my thoughts as of late. Trying to figure out exactly I want to do to to feel content with myself which includes many trivial things. Naming some would be trying to find a good diet plan, trying to find a good exercise plan I can do at home because other than the pandemic I don't like going to Gyms, how to be more creative with myself and how the hell am I doing to force myself into writing again?!

I guess this blog or journal or whatever you want to call it is one of things that I am hoping will help me do that. Even if it's just writing things like this; It's still writing, right?

More Wedding planning has come to fruition. We have officially booked a Ceremony Venue and I am hoping soon the Reception Venue will follow. I already have an amazing place in mind and have been in contact with the owner concerning it. Fingers crossed the price is right and they can accommodate our needs.

My sister and mother keep discussing when we should start going dress shopping. I am excited but I am also nervous since I have the worst case of body dysmorphia and I already know it's going to be hard. (I've never liked trying on things and looking in the mirror because I know I won't be happy with what's on the other side) I am still trying to stay positive and just hope that what my sister tells me is true: "Everyone looks good in a Wedding Dress!"

Work has gotten more stressful, but it will start looking up. The employee I spoke about previously turned in their two weeks notice last Monday and this week is her last week with us at the office- we have also already filled her position! My sister has worked with her previously(yes, my sister and I work at the same Law Firm. Yes, it can be annoying) and can vouch for how much of an amazing paralegal she is. So I am pretty excited to finally have someone who will get along with us and be a team player. The work has been difficult though because the employee that's leaving seems to have decided she can't do any of her closings that she has been sitting on for more than a month that are closing this week. The mood surrounding her has not been pleasant. Everyone is kind of done with her shit. As they should be. We have all put up with this for way longer than necessary. I just hope things get a little less stressful once it's been a few weeks after the new person starts. 

I am going to start writing up this idea for a story I have been playing around with for the longest. I think I might make a rough draft tomorrow at work if I have free time on pen and paper, then transfer the final cut of it onto here. Who knows, maybe you, the person reading this will enjoy it enough to egg me on to continue or make something out of it. Writing for someone other than myself would be lovely. I remember the feeling of seeing the excitement of my avid readers after I'd post a chapter. It made me feel just as good and happy as I did when writing it. 

Anyway, in It's-A-Monday-So-It's-Time-For-A-Glass-Of-Wine Fashion, time to watch more Vampire Diaries. God, I love Damon.